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Teddy  rocked   back  and  forth  on  the
hospital bed,  her gown hanging loosely
on her slight frame. It didn’t matter how
many times Delia asked — her answer
would always be the same.

                I want my baby. Give me back my baby.
                She’d lost a husband; she’d lost a child.
                And  somewhere  along  the way, she’d
                lost  h e r s e l f .

It felt selfish to be thinking about herself in that
moment, but Delia still found herself wondering
how she could ever be more than a reminder of
not only one but now t w o of the loved ones that
her mother had lost. Between the possibility of
carrying the dreaded VHL gene and her incurable
optimism, she was Henry’s daughter through and
through. She might not have played any part in his
untimely death, but there was a rather large part of
her that felt she was at least somewhat responsible
for the unnecessary loss of her little half-sister.

                “You what?” Delia prompted, hoping she might continue
                before  c o m p l e t e l y  shutting down. “I really need to
                get going, so whatever it is, just tell me already. Please.”

I  really need  to  get  going.  The  whisper upon her
lips fell silent in her realization: just  like  everyone
else,  Delia  had  upped  and moved on.  While  the
world  went   on   living  without  her,  Teddy  found
herself  chasing  after  ghosts  that were  long gone
——  the   life  she could have  had, the family she
n e v e r would have and now the child whose face
she’d  never  see  again. The world didn’t cease to
roll  on  just because she couldn’t bear to distance
herself   from   the  past;  it  would  only  leave  her
further  and   further  behind,  so  long  as she kept
trying  to  live the memories of the people she had
lost.  

                “T-There’s  nothing left for me to live for,”
                she keened softly, trying to rock the pain
                away. “Nothing left but  y  o  u . Don’t go,
                Delia — I need you.”