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soldierheartcd:

“I’m sick of lying to you. You
deserve to know the truth.”

Teddy’s words hit Delia like a ton of bricks as
soon as they sank in. Not only had she made
one of the biggest mistakes of her young life,
she’d also completely shattered her parents’
trust in her. Who knew how long it was going
to take for her to earn it back, assuming that
it was even at all possible by that point.

                “Oh my God, he’s going to  h a t e  me. I mean, you already do, so
                why shouldn’t he? I probably deserve it after what I did anyway, so
                it shouldn’t surprise me.” Delia made no effort to hide her tears as
                she leaned up against the back of the couch. A sudden realization
                that neither one of them would ever be able to look at her the same
                way again only caused more pangs of regret. “I didn’t mean to. I’m
                s o r r y.”

Teddy  knew  Delia well enough to tell when those
tears  were  wholly genuine. There was no reason
now  for  them  not  to  be; after all, Teddy had run
out of furious words to say. If Delia had wanted to
hit  her right where it hurt, she’d surely have done
it sooner — and right then, Teddy wanted nothing
more  than  to take  her daughter in her arms and
hold her.  Oh, baby. It’ll all be okay. I could never
hate you, my love.

                But  she couldn’t; not if she wanted the lesson to sink in.
                It  was at times like this when Teddy truly loathed being
                a mother — her heart was at war with her mind, fighting
                over  whether  to  do what she wanted or what was right.
                So, Teddy held  her  silence…  and  prayed  that  Delia
                might one day forgive her for her hardness  of  h e a r t.