[ ARIZONA ROBBINS ; ] → @strongscribed

love has no place in war. it was true. logically, arizona knew that. but she couldn’t think logically right now. she just couldn’t. there were too many overwhelming emotions swirling through her veins for her to see clearly. “ you’re saying i’d just be a distraction. a useless distraction that can’t take care of herself. you think you’d have to look out for me over there the whole time but you’re wrong. i might not have the same training as you do but i grew up in a house full of marines. i know a thing or two about surviving. ” she replied, arms crossed over her chest protectively, fear masking itself as anger. 

“And you can’t say that, teddy. you can’t tell me to hold on for you when there’s no guarantee whether you’ll come back to me or not. it’s not fair. you can’t make me any promises. you can’t say you’re coming back because you might not make it. and this just isn’t fair. we’re supposed to be starting a family together. ” frustration seeped into her voice as a single tear made its way down her cheek. “ i don’t know if i can be strong without you because you make me strong. you make me better. and i just. ” a small pause, arizona swallowing the lump that had formed in her throat. “ please don’t leave me. please, just stay here with me. stay for me. ”

“You know you’re asking the impossible of me, don’t you?” Teddy said through gritted teeth, knowing she was moments away from losing hold of her rational mind. “It’s my duty, Arizona! For god’s sake, you were raised by a colonel—you were even named after a warship! You of all people should know that I have no choice in this!” Though her words were painted black, Teddy knew her resentment wasn’t for Arizona. No, it was resentment at the system for making her choose; for bringing nothing but war to the only woman she had ever loved. 

Now Arizona was crying and Teddy was lost without the words to make it right. As she searched those familiar blue eyes for a solution that wasn’t there, she found instead the future that was now denied to them: a future with the family she had always craved, and faultless love that would endure for ever. How could they survive this? Even if Teddy managed to ride out her service, would she still have a home to return to here? 

              Or would Arizona have long since left for someone who actually deserved her?